Organizing,eating healthy and brushing teeth

If you have not seen Food Inc. yet go watch it now! I highly reccomend it, I am an organic girl but for any skeptics who think I'm a granola eating hippi for no reason. Your wrong! I'd rather be a hippi then eat junk. Seriously, especially if you have kids or plan on having kids. Very important to know whats in the food your feeding them.Logan has never had fast food, I think thats normal. He is one and thats not food, if I have it my way he will never have fast food. But obviously he will grow up and decide for himself. But in the time I do have the say and he doesn't mind, why not filll him full of healthy stuff. I am lucky or maybe it's because I never fed him "kid food" he loves onions,mushrooms, rice, chicken and one of his favorite meals is salmon with brown rice. You get the point, I beleive in eating and feeding healthy food. And because I love you all , I want you to do the same! It's cheaper in the long run, less health problems, less bills. =)

So Logan loves Elmo, he has never seen an Elmo show or movie. He just happens to have some toys with Elmo on them. We of course tell him, thats Elmo. Now he walks all over the house saying "Elmo". I got him a new tooth brush with Elmo on it thinking he wouldn't even notice it's so small. Nope he did and loves it! He calls it, "Elmo toof" and never wants to let go of it. Tonight he went to sleep with an Elmo doll. It's just so funny to me how he has taken on this whole love for Elmo all on his own. He is very self determined thats for sure. =)

This is Logan the other night with his "Elmo Toof" as he calls it, in the bath (favorite place).

My lovely husband is going to redo our room and get me new bedroom furniture for my birthday. And I have been begging him to get Logan a rug and a cute hangy animal holder. So we went to Ikea last Saturday and got stuff for Logan's room while looking at stuff for ours. He came home and organized it and made it look adorable. He even hung the painting my friend did for us in there. You can't see it in these photos but it's very sweet. I will have to post a picture of it.Thanks sweet heart!

I love that rug because he is getting into playing cars. It was only cost $14.00!! Those town rugs are usually around $40-$60! I also love the animal hangy, it was $4.00. I sound like an Ikea add! hah. Well they are cheap, I just don't expect it to last forever. =)

Walking to Running!

Logan has been really working on walking for the last month. And for the last two weeks he has gotten really good! He runs, it is so cute! He is also talking like crazy, he says, " I wann dat mommy" as he points at want he wants. He also says our dogs name, "Emee" (Em'ly) and apple he says perfectly. Which he applys to all fruit except nanas.

His other kind of funny past time is to just sit in his rocker. He sometimes takes a bear, a book or a bottle. He can just hang out on it for awhile. If he is not running, sitting in his rocker then he is on his congos!

Things I can't say out loud

I am not even sure anyone even reads this thing, which makes writing this much easier. I have not really been the same this month, a little off, a little shaken, a little confused and I'm just waiting for this feeling to drift away. It hasn't yet and I don't know when it will or if it ever will. Some may know that Brett Shanks died last month....my dad. It's hard to say "dad" or "father" because we were never very close. So maybe it shouldn't hurt so much but I feel the very opposite actually.

He was doing the best he had ever done in his life, he was really trying. Putting his best foot forward, so to say. He for once in his life was able to look outside of himself and see the damage he had done and he truly wanted to make it right. Not that he never wanted to make it right in the past, he had but he couldn't. He had written me every month or so for the past two years. I in the last two 1/2 years, I had gotten married and had a baby. I was nervous and unsure of getting into a relationship with him to just be let down again. Which may or may not have been the case. I will never know.

I would like to think he would have surprised me and that he would have continued doing well. That he finally would be able to really turn his life around. That thought makes me feel good and bad. I guess that's why this is so hard on me. There is so much I will never know..that he will never know.

After his funeral I spent so much time remembering all the times we had been together. I tried remembering his voice, his laugh (very memorable) and for the most part it was all very loud and clear. But those memories were so long ago, eight years to be exact. It didn't seem fare.

He never got to see me as a wife and mother. He never got to meet my amazing son or hear his laugh. For once in my life I felt nothing but love for him. Not as a martyr but as a daughter..letting go of a father she never had. I was so happy to know he was doing well, I just wish I would have talked to him or written him. I know we all have regrets. I think this moment has altered me in ways unimaginable. Strange I know...I can't even voice my feeling on this out loud. That being the reason I am writing this, that maybe if I can write it, just get some of these feelings out maybe some of this strange hurt and pain will slowly dissipate. Every night before I go to bed I'm haunted with so many thoughts and I turn to talk to my husband, my understanding, amazing husband...but I can't. It's so strange because I tell him everything. This for some reason...is different. So very personal and hard for me. Funny I can write about it but not talk about it. Writing this brings a relief. In my mind no one will even read this. But my words have been written and that brings a strange comfort.

He was not a mean person, he was actually a very nice and caring person. He just never found himself and by the time he was getting close, it was too late. I believe all man is basically good. And he was basically good and even had good intentions.

He is in a better place now and I am very positive of this. With every once of my being I know he is happy where he is. That brings a calmness to this chaos that runs through my head.

Well if anyone took the time to actually read all of this, thank you.

I hope you have at least one good memory with my dad. If you do, feel free to share it. I need as many as I can get.

Christmas...tid bit late

Sene Family Christmas 2009

We had a great Christmas! I am late in posting this because this last month was so crazy with going and coming I have not had time. We have had Adam's little sister and brother with us all month and Allen, his little brother left earlier this week and Victoria goes back to Boston tomorrow. I am going to miss her, we had fun doing girly stuff together. But she has got to get back to College. So life is finally getting back to normal, it's bitter sweet.

Logan has been talking up a storm and walking more then before. He said alligator and turkey on Christmas. He also calls Adam and I by our first names which is very funny! He is a very clever guy.

My husband, like every year created an amazing Chritmas for me. Thanks babe! I got that new camera I have been hoping for all year. Yay! Logan was thrilled with everything. He enjoyed every one of his gifts and loved unwrapping them. I have been doing the tradition that my mom did, of getting new pjs on Christmas eve and wearing them Christmas morning with just Adam and I. This year I got to to do it with Logan and that was fun. We opened our stockings at 7am in our bed with Logan. He was so into it, it was so fun to watch!

Logan got a rockin horse! That was the big start off of the morning!

He also got real congas and he really plays them too. He is so musical it's crazy. He loves playing piano, bass, guitar, the congas and the flute. He also sings while playing them! So maybe we have another rock star in the family!

I hope everyone has an amazing 2010 and that they get and do everything they plan on in this amazing up coming year! I know we plan on doing alot and I am very excited about it! So happy New Year!